It's just a game

Love is an odd thing, its blind, we always end up falling in love with the person we can’t have, either they love someone else, they live in a different country… the list goes on… but they say that the best things come to those who wait, but how long do we wait for? I know they say that loves a game, but its a tough game to play… you open up to someone completely, feelings make you vulnerable, the question is are you willing to open up to someone and risk getting hurt? 

Mistakes

I am not the type of person that trusts easily, I don't say the words "I love you" very often, in fact I have only said it to one person, and I don't mean family, thats a hole different "I love you". I am not that girl who dresses to impress, or that girl who is smart,... all my friends are special, they all have a bright future, they are not afraid of anything... I wish I could say the same, I am far from special, I am clumsy to start with, I muddle up all my words, I am forgetful, I leave everything to the last minute and well, if I could manage to at least brush my hair in the morning that would be a miracle! I was going to write about all the good things that have happened to me this year, but like always my fears are more powerful... If there is anything I could wish for, I would wish for a time machine, I would go back in the past and change all the mistakes that I have made. I would start with not going up those stairs to play hide and seek when I was young, I wouldn't have sent that letter to my friend,.. there is such an immense list of mistakes, but I have been told that everything happens for a reason, I still haven't figured out that reason, but I will, I promise.

This feeling

Have you ever had this feeling before? The feeling that you get when you are close to that special person; the feeling you can't breathe, that you are floating in mid air. That's the feeling I get when I'm around you. That famous saying that you are "on cloud 9", I'm nearly there, or I thought I was. You made me feel special, you gave me hugs and you cuddled me...and everything seemed perfect. But you never chose me, it was always about someone else, you always chose that somebody else over me and suddenly my confidence dissapears and I just break into a million pieces. I don't feel loved. I question why you don't feel the same way about me, and I always come to the conclusion that there is something wrong with me. You keep confusing  me, some days it's all about me, or better yet, it's about us. As said before, you make me feel special, loved,... and other days it's like I don't even exist. You block me out of your mind and you act like nothing has happened, like all those hugs never existed, and that's when I know that you don't like me, that you have feelings for somebody else. It hurts so much, and I don't think that what hurts the most is that you like somebody else, I think mostly its because you reject me for who I am. If only you knew how much I cared about you, what I would do for you. Even though this sounds pretentious, I would do anything for you, I would jump in front of a car for you just to save your life. My feelings for you are so strong, that if I ever have a chance with you, I could never let you go, it would be impossible, you are a part of me and I wish you knew.

Best friends

I miss all my friends, not seeing them everyday, not being able to hang out in the afternoon because of tests and projects and all that "useful" homework that teachers send. Anyway, going to another school, I have really appreciate having those special friends, I've realized that they have always been there for me in the toughest times and they have always been there for the happiest moments too.
I'm really glad we got to know each other and that you have and always bee a part of my life. <3

Laughter is the best medicine

Laughter and happiness. The people we love make those feelings possible (family, friends...) To  me, well, to most people that's a great feeling to experience. I must say, I'm happy everyday, and now that I think about it, It's weird being happy every moment of every day, but I have to thank my friends for that 'cause they are the ones that make me laugh so hard that eventually it hurts. It's sad to think that laughing hurts, but it's a very good feeling. My friends must thinks that I've gone mad, well not just my friends, I think that the whole world must think it. A friend and me always say "laughter makes you live longer" so adding up all the moments of laughter we think that we will live until we are like five hundred years old, and if not more than that. =)

That person

 Everything is perfect when I'm around you.

Friends

So, school started about a month ago, but to be honest it feels like forever. Having to wake up at half past five in the morning, doing homework, missing all my friends at my other school, but there is also very good feelings about going to a different school. I thought changing school was going to be horrible and that I wouldnt make any friends, the change of routine... at the begining it was really hard, i thought i wasnt going to make it to the end of the day, but as many people have told me, you have got to go on with life, because life doesnt have a stop button to pause all the great memories, and it doesnt have a fastfoward button to rush all the bad and boring stuff un life. There is one thing Im really gratefull about going to a new school,and that is all the great friends that I've made.