Mistakes

I am not the type of person that trusts easily, I don't say the words "I love you" very often, in fact I have only said it to one person, and I don't mean family, thats a hole different "I love you". I am not that girl who dresses to impress, or that girl who is smart,... all my friends are special, they all have a bright future, they are not afraid of anything... I wish I could say the same, I am far from special, I am clumsy to start with, I muddle up all my words, I am forgetful, I leave everything to the last minute and well, if I could manage to at least brush my hair in the morning that would be a miracle! I was going to write about all the good things that have happened to me this year, but like always my fears are more powerful... If there is anything I could wish for, I would wish for a time machine, I would go back in the past and change all the mistakes that I have made. I would start with not going up those stairs to play hide and seek when I was young, I wouldn't have sent that letter to my friend,.. there is such an immense list of mistakes, but I have been told that everything happens for a reason, I still haven't figured out that reason, but I will, I promise.