This feeling

Have you ever had this feeling before? The feeling that you get when you are close to that special person; the feeling you can't breathe, that you are floating in mid air. That's the feeling I get when I'm around you. That famous saying that you are "on cloud 9", I'm nearly there, or I thought I was. You made me feel special, you gave me hugs and you cuddled me...and everything seemed perfect. But you never chose me, it was always about someone else, you always chose that somebody else over me and suddenly my confidence dissapears and I just break into a million pieces. I don't feel loved. I question why you don't feel the same way about me, and I always come to the conclusion that there is something wrong with me. You keep confusing  me, some days it's all about me, or better yet, it's about us. As said before, you make me feel special, loved,... and other days it's like I don't even exist. You block me out of your mind and you act like nothing has happened, like all those hugs never existed, and that's when I know that you don't like me, that you have feelings for somebody else. It hurts so much, and I don't think that what hurts the most is that you like somebody else, I think mostly its because you reject me for who I am. If only you knew how much I cared about you, what I would do for you. Even though this sounds pretentious, I would do anything for you, I would jump in front of a car for you just to save your life. My feelings for you are so strong, that if I ever have a chance with you, I could never let you go, it would be impossible, you are a part of me and I wish you knew.